quoted:

"You want some of this kid? You want it?"
-me. I'm a hit with the kids

feel this:

"...when everything inside me feels like everything I hate, you are the hope I have for change, you are the only chance I'll take..." Switchfoot

Ugh, I'm so sick of wasting money. Just booked my trip to Texas. Another 500 bucks down the drain and I am feeling super depressed because I know UNT is sooo out of my league and am not even sure why I'm auditioning there. And now, in this super depressed state I have to be ready for work in a half hour. I keep meaning to leave the house and actually do something on these days where I don't work until late, but my heart and body just feel too heavy to do anything but watch crappy TV and read Stephen King. I can't tell if I'm getting sick or if I'm just feeling "the blues" as they say. I did play guitar for a little while (after cutting my nails...I was starting to look like Howard Hughes in his hermit stage of life) so that lifted my spirits a little. But actually getting up off my ass and going to work and dealing with the public is really unappealing right now. Gross. Would anyone even notice if I crawled under my covers and never came out? Well, maybe my mom would.

At least mom, dad, and I had a good time watching a really crappy movie on demand. And I am hearing Alison Krauss's voice right now which always makes me happy.

quote: "Titanic just basically copied this movie. Except for the time travel...and the Titanic."

yesterday // life goes on