quoted:

"You want some of this kid? You want it?"
-me. I'm a hit with the kids

feel this:

"...when everything inside me feels like everything I hate, you are the hope I have for change, you are the only chance I'll take..." Switchfoot

I've been luxuriating in illness the past day or so. On Saturday night, I returned from Texas with my momma and woke up Sunday morning with a funny back ache and thought it must be cuse I slept on it funny or it got tweaked from sitting on airplanes all day. I sang at church, I closed at the SPG Sunday night, and thought nothing of it until I woke up yesterday morning with a sore throat, chills, and aches all over my body, not just my back. Usually, i know when a fever is coming because the backs of my knees get really sore for no reason. I guess the ache in my back threw me off.
It's an opportune time though. I've had this feeling that some kind of yucky cold or flu was waiting to pounce on me, but I wouldn't let it. I held it back by either my sheer force of will, (or perhaps the hand of God) until all of my grad school auditions were done. And wouldn't you know, the day after I return from my final grad school auditioning journey, i wake up with some yuckiness. Like i said, it was an opportune time.
And speaking of those auditions, I felt a great sense of relief and accomplishment after I walked out of the concert hall at University of North Texas into the bright Denton sunshine. I thought I sang quite well, and faculty seemed to be pleased enough, but I've given up on trying to read people at these things. I only end up getting confused and discouraged. Best to just walk out and reflect briefly, and not give it too much thought.
Mom (who accompanied me on this trip) and I spent the afternoon on an adventure driving into Dallas and did a little shopping at an upscale mall. All right, we didn't even feel good enough to go into most of the stores, but we did get some coffee and do a lot of people watching. There was an ice skating rink there too, so that was at least a half hour of entertainment, watching people look like goofs on the ice. We drove back into Denton for dinner, and thank God we did. We found this BBQ place about a block from our hotel called Rudy's. I had a brisket sandwich, and it was the most delicious meat I've ever tasted. It melted in my mouth and did not require any sauce whatsoever. My mom keeps reminding me that I can't go to UNT based solely on it's proximity to Rudy's but I have to keep reminding her that we'll have to wait and see if I even get in before I start making decisions based on certain criteria.
So that was my trip and last audition. I still have heard nary a word from UW or BU, which is annoying, but I did receive a letter from The Lamont School of Music at the University of Denver with the news that I have been accepted to the program. That was quite the upper for me. I felt chills. But maybe that had more to do with the fever. In all seriousness though, I'm pretty excited. While Denver isn't my first choice, it is a great school and program and definitely had the nicest facilities out of all the places I auditioned. And they want me!! Even if that's the only place I get into, I'll feel pretty lucky.

Anyhoo, I've spent all day in my pj's lying on the couch, sometimes under a blanky, sometimes too hot, reading a little, watching some DVR'ed tv that i haven't gotten around to watching. But i do have to work in a little over an hour, and I figured i should at least get my ass off the couch and try to shake some of this lethargy. I seriously thought about calling in sick, but after all of these trips, I really need the money. And maybe once I get moving and take some ibuprofen and a little codeine so I don't hack on anyone's food I'll feel better equipped to work.
The only thing that worries me a little? My achin' back and weak knees. Let's hope I don't have to carry too many heavy trays.

quote: "It tastes like the urine of satan after a hefty portion of asparagus." Jack Donaghy reading the review of his Donaghy Estates sparkling wine.
song: I got the new Relient K cd in the mail yesterday but only gave it a half hearted listen as I was huddled under blankies shivering.

yesterday // life goes on