So life is going pretty well now, but I'm still fairly annoyed by a lot of things. I guess you never quite get everything you want and have it all work out at the same time.
I've decided to go to the University of North Texas for graduate school, and am still waiting to hear from the voice teacher I want, and waiting to get a bulletin in the mail so i can figure out what I'm registering for. The 20 minute euphoria of deciding on a school and the momentary peace that came with it have subsided and now I'm left trying to figure out the aforementioned stuff, along with trying to motivate myself to relearn undergraduate music theory, history, and ear training for my entrance exams, tentatively looking for apartments and random roommates on the internet, which is scary, and worrying about financial aid and all of the problems that go with it, trying to save money for life while also trying to pay off my undergraduate loans before I incur more, and dealing with the idea of moving to a completely different corner of the country a couple of thousand miles from any other living soul I am familiar with. It's stressful and I'd rather not think about it all right now, thank you very much, but I know I have to.
And of course, i shouldn't complain, because I'm going to grad school, and that's pretty rad, right? Yes. It is.
Work has been getting on my nerves lately, too, not for any particular reason, just lots of little things. Chief on the list are dealing with the public (it's hard to be a people person at all times, especially when people are complete assholes, and MOST especially when you're not really a people person!) and the fact that my schedule is completely opposite to the people I'd like to be spending time with. Working evenings and weekends makes it really hard to connect with those M-F 9-5 types.
Which brings me to another potentially good thing going for me right now. James. I met him a few weeks ago, we've been seeing each other ever since, (which doesn't turn out to be all that frequently due to our opposite schedules), and, well, I really enjoy his company and I'm pretty sure he enjoys mine as well. With me heading off to grad school in August and him most likely leaving the country before that, I'm pretty sure neither of us are foreseeing anything long term, but at least being with him adds an occasional bright spot to my otherwise boring life.
Is it selfish to like a guy because he's a novelty? If that's the case, i also like him because he's goofy and makes me laugh a lot. And he's the perfect height. Hehe.
But work seems all the more monotonous and lame when i think that I could be hanging out with him instead of dealing with stupid banquets and occasionally idiotic managerial decisions (but I won't even go into that). And while I'm at work I'm constantly distracted. So that's lame. As Switchfoot says in their song I don't like that much "The Shadow Proves the Sunshine." I s'pose that fits.
Well, I should probably get ready for worky work now. I'm scheduled to be there in an hour and a half, but should probably get there kind of early so I can set up my buffet before I get tables on the serving floor (did I mention idiotic managerial decisions? yeah...).
Oh!! But before I go, Mark called me from France yesterday. Kinda made my week. Yesterday was just overall a good day: long walk in the morning, lunch with the parents, Erin and Mark on the phone, a good voice lesson, hanging at Kira's, dinner and spending the evening with James. Makes today seem pretty sucky. At least Lost is on tonight.
Happy birthday, Theresa!! I hope YOUR day is going very well and that we get to chat longer next time.
song: She Doesn't Get It by The Format
yesterday // life goes on
